A mensagem de hoje

Horas later. Got an email from a friend telling that she's tired of her routine. Me too I've answered her. Everybody is tired of routine. Told her we need more adrenaline. Merde. I did the worst thing I could do. Not referring to what I wrote. But accidentally I've noticed I was betrayed by my excessive care...Laughs is I can do right now...Merde

O passado me condena

Em duas semanas reencontrei doi antigos ficantes.
Um deles foi discretíssimo, mesmo porque eu fingi não reconhecê-lo.
Outro estava lindíssimo embora que sob efeito de substância psicotrópica.
Ele queria me beijar, como recusei. Anunciou a todos que um dia me beijara.
Hoje me arrependo de não tê-lo beijado.
Me contive e talvez outra oportunidade não haverá.

O reencontro

Liguei como quem não quer nada.
Passamos a manhã juntos.
Ele me quería. Eu não o quis.
Eu queria apenas curtir o momento sem qualquer conotação sexual.
À noite ele me procurou para despedir-se.
Nos beijamos.

Learning

Aprendi a não criar expectativas. A curtir o momento. Ele ligou numa manhã de domingo. O carinho foi verdadeiro. A noite maravilhosa. Porque pensei apenas em viver aqueles momentos ainda que fugazes. Good memories, good sensations. I'm laughing til now just to think 'bout what we've done.

Colírio

Hoje o meu colírio apareceu. Deveria tê-lo elogiado mas me contive. Elegante, algo raro considerando a sua profissão. Geralmente são descuidados e usam roupas sempre do mesmo tom. Ele também reparou no que eu vestia. Sei das várias complicações inerentes. Estou a ponto de fazer uma loucura. Mas what the fuck. Life´s mine.

Indecent Proposal Not At All

Yes indeed he appeared after a long time. Obviously asked about my missing. He passed by few minutes after his wife came. Asked whether I'd travel to Sp and said he'd be there on next thursday and the should go with him. I said naturally that I would't 'cause I had some issues here. When leaving he said I was a boring person. ' Of course 'cause we wouldn't be able to meet there. In the anonimous city where noone would know about it.....Laughsssss

My Carrie's Behaviour

Somehow I've always dreamed about finding the right guy. Somehow I've always wanted to be Sex'n the City's Carrie. And somehow I've really felt like her some dyas ago. Before the meeting I was wondering how it would be. So finally the day came. I wore a dress, large belt and a jeans jacket to gain a youthful appearance. I was feeling enthusiastic and beautiful. Well he arrived, actually took a long time to find the house. I thought he would say that I was looking stunning, but he didn't. It was strange I guess he was nervous. We went to a bar to meet a couple of friends. His friend was more attentious to me. Anyway I thought he was kinda shy or something alike. He drove me home, I've kinda realized he was preparing himself for something when he got a candy to breath better. Arriving at home, we said goodbye but nothing happened, I was leaving the car when he started to talk about his problem. I leaved the car and near the gate when he open the car window, I said: "I thought you'd give me a kiss". When we kissed. This was typical a Carrie's behaviou. I've never imagined that I would do something alike. When kissing I said that he sould've take part instead of me. He smeled so good. Maybe this was just a adventure. Only time will tell. I hope it tells me that this history will continue.